Saturday, July 30, 2022

A Poem a Day, Week 30, July 23-29

A Poem a Day, Week 30, July 23 to July 29, 2022

Welcome to Sifting the Rubble's weekly blog and podcast of my poem-a-day challenge for 2022. I am your host, and poet, Emily Gibson. The poems for the 30th week of the year, July 23 to 29, started with quotes, family photographs, and moments on my bicycle, and evolved from there.  

I will mention that these are 1 or 2 day poems, which have not gone through the grist of revision.  That comes later, something I truly look forward to doing.  For now, they are freshly hatched, still a little wet around the ears, maybe somewhat awkward at times.  Yet each has something to say, so I share them, uncensored, as part of my challenge.

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And now, for this week's poems!



Poem #204, Shadow Slalom 

by Emily Gibson, July 23, 2022


"Keep your face always toward the sunshine and the shadows will fall behind you.”  --Walt Whitman


I pedal a road--

its tiny grains of rock,

my tires ignore.

Sun sinks to my left.

Each bit of gravel 

casts a shadow to the right.

This smooth road

now presents obstacles

to swerve with delight.


About "Shadow Slalom": This poem captures a brief moment on a bike ride, nearing sunset, when the change of light turned tiny bits of gravel into significant visual obstacles.




Poem #205, Secret Messages

by Emily Gibson, July 24, 2022


If you could tell yourself a secret

how would you do the telling?

Maybe a message in white pebbles

on a gray rock shore;

Or clouds arranged just so

in a windless sky.

A chorus of birds 

with chirps like morse code;

Or a paragraph of mushrooms

after a long-awaited storm.

A subtle arrangement of tea leaves

strewn across the sink;

Or staggered lightning lines

straggling words across the dark.

I think my secret message 

to myself might be one word

on hot pavement

in wet dog prints

before they vanished:

LOOK.


About "Secret Messages": This poem came from a poetry prompt to consider what you would tell yourself, if you could send yourself a secret message.



Poem #206, Funnels or Pyramids

by Emily Gibson, July 25, 2022


We sit at the bottom

of funnels,

condensed from those before

whether we knew them or not--

it’s all stored in our DNA,

memories in bones and sinew,

neurons and fingernails.

It is a mighty weight,

a responsibility 

to deserve our chance

at life.


Yet we also sit at the apex of pyramids

descending below us

through time, 

to those who come after,

who may or may not know us.

We deposit in the DNA

lessons for life, 

next steps, wisdom.

It is a mighty weight, 

a responsibility

to pack tools and insights

useful for

lives we won't

live.


About "Funnels or Pyramids": In this poem I explore the conundrum of simultaneously being the condensation of all who have gone before, as well as the precursor for all that will come. I can see my parents, grandparents, and great grandparents in me, and feel their lessons in my DNA. Both the ones they wished to pass on and ones they might not realize tagged along.



Poem #207, Blanket of Silence 

by Emily Gibson, July 26, 2022


A place so quiet, so still,

silence becomes sound.

Everything you do

disturbs the hush:

a breath, a head turn,

a mindless shift of a foot.

A normal place

hides that personal soundtrack.

Like an oppressive heat,

a place of silence has gravity.

It tethers you to earth,

and begs you to break free.




Emily (me) at a rest stop on a quiet road west of Bend.







About "Blanket of Silence": On the day captured in this photo, I sat to eat a snack and absorb water before pedaling into the oppressive heat of the day. A training ride for my upcoming Bike MS weekend. There were no cars on the road, not a single man-made sound to be heard. No birds, no wind. Just silence. Similar to being underwater, in a way.



Poem #208, As They Are 

by Emily Gibson, July 27, 2022


“We do not see things as they are. We see things as we are.”— Rabbi Shemuel ben Nachmani, as quoted in the Talmud


Check our confidence at the door.

That blue is our blue

not a universal blue.

That gnarled bark is our bark,

that too-spicy sauce is our “too.”

Assume not that our reality

bears resemblance to others’.

To change ourselves

is to change what we see.

To understand another,

borrow their lens.


About "As They Are": The quote above inspired this poem about understanding how our perspective is just that, our perspective. There is no universal perspective. We must try to understand others if we are going to come together to heal. That requires seeing through others' eyes, I believe.




Poem #209, Sturdy 

by Emily Gibson, July 28, 2022


Middle of a long line,

Sturdy,

Stretching back, 

Layers of lives,

Salt of the earth families,

Peppered with sorrow and grief,

Dealt tough hands.

Together, heads down,

Keep on,  

Do what needs to be done.

Above all, provide, 

Whatever it takes.


You, 

Sandts,

Comings,

Gibsons.

You, 

Sturdy, 

Farm stock,

Labor’s lads and lasses.

When you farm

You work.

All you know?

Work.

All your children know?

Work.


Until you two 

Planted study feet

A new direction,

Gifted choice

to children 

and grandchildren:

“Be what you long to be

just don’t be afraid

to work hard.”

Sturdy.





My Grandpa Joseph Gibson and Grandma Ruth Comings Sandt-Gibson, circa 1950, Coventry, NY. With my dad and his brothers Rob and Charlie, but not 100% sure. There were 3 Sandt sons and 3 Gibson sons.








About "Sturdy": My dad sent some photos of his father in response to questions my brother and I were asking. When I saw this photo, which my dad had titled "Grapes of Wrath" it became this poem. What it took for them to keep going as life slung its arrows at them continues to inspire me in my life's arrows.




Poem #210, Strong Jaws 

by Emily Gibson, July 29, 2022


Young brawn,

strong jaw

sturdy bone

lean muscles

built to toil 

with the soil.

The men, the horses,

neither knew what 

horror lay ahead,

nor that nearly none

would return.

Bright faces forward,

yoked in unison.















Victoria Horse Brigade, pre WWI, Canada.  My grandpa Joseph Gibson, 2nd from right.


About "Strong Jaws": Another photo from the collection my dad sent, this one surprised me because I did not know my grandfather was a horse person. I have loved horses all my life. I was struck by how similar the men and horses were, in their strength and their naïveté. This photo was heartbreaking, because I knew that, unlike my grandfather, few of those young men or horses made it back from WWI.



And that concludes Sifting the Rubble's poetry for this week! I hope you enjoyed this collection of poems. Perhaps some of them spoke to you, or maybe you found one begging to be shared with someone else. If so, I hope you will pass it on! Either way, thank you for listening and reading. Hope to see you next week!

Monday, July 25, 2022

A Poem a Day, Week 29, July 16 to July 22, 2022

 A Poem a Day, Week 29, July 16 to July 22, 2022


Welcome to Sifting the Rubble's weekly blog and podcast of my poem-a-day challenge for 2022. I am your host, and poet, Emily Gibson. The poems for the 29th week of the year, July 16 to 22, find their origins in events of the week, some momentous, some tiny slivers of time, most involving aspects of nature.  

I will mention that these are 1 or 2 day poems, which have not gone through the grist of revision.  That comes later, something I truly look forward to doing.  For now, they are freshly hatched, still a little wet around the ears, maybe somewhat awkward at times.  Yet each has something to say, so I share them, uncensored, as part of my challenge.

As always, you can keep track of Sifting the Rubble's posts on the Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram platforms:

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Please like and follow and share in whichever ways suit you. Thank you! :)  (Some of these poems have images connected to them, which you can view on the blog if you choose!)

And now, for this week's poems!


Listen to Week 29 Poetry Podcast


Poem #197, Kintsugi Spirits 

by Emily Gibson, July 16, 2022



We are all broken.

Our spirits come to earth

to live a human life,

to experience

broken.

Some of us are broken 

just a tiny bit,

a hairline fracture here

or there, barely

visible, unless the sun shines

just so, at an angle,

like a horizontal spider web

glittering on a gravel road.

Many of us break repeatedly

along the same line, one

we thought had healed;

sometimes, it requires

several strategic breaks

and resets

to get it right.

Others of us,

when our spirits arrived,

shattered into shards

that cut others

or ourselves,

making us unrecognizable

until healing brings 

us back,

into focus.

The level of broken

is not the point.

Healing is.

We were born

to do the work.

You can tell the ones

who are healing,

for they shine like 

pottery repaired in

Kintsugi,

each crack line 

rubbed in gold leaf.


About "Kintsugi Spirits": This poem came to me after reading an article about the Japanese art form of Kintsugi. The whole poem came out, almost as it is here, just needing a few adjustments here and there. This one goes on the pile of "future revisions" because I think it has great promise. When I share it, people from all walks of life can relate, no matter what form their healing takes.


Poem #198, The Shame of Embarrassment 

by Emily Gibson, July 17, 2022


Embarrassment is not equivalent to shame.  

I am embarrassed when others find out

I filed my taxes on Tax Day every year.

However, if no one knows, I might feel shame

for my character flaw of procrastination.


I am embarrassed when I drive past

a person waiting to cross the street.

But if the person couldn’t see me,

I might feel shame for breaking the rule.


I am embarrassed you see solitaire over my shoulder

instead of the writing I professed to do today.

While shame would fill my brain if I played

after promising pages, and you never knew.


Shame roots in individual acts

known only to yourself.

Embarrassment roots to individual acts

combined with others’ awareness.

It is a subtle difference.

No need to be ashamed

or feel embarrassment

if you are ever confused.


About "The Shame of Embarrassment": I saw a comparison of embarrassment and shame in a meditation, which motivated me to explore it a bit. I have deeply rooted patterns of shame that I am working to eradicate, but I definitely thought shame was synonymous with embarrassment!



Poem #199, Together, Easy

by Emily Gibson, July 18, 2022



Together.

Not forced, like a shaken vinaigrette dressing,

but easy, like hummus spread on toast.

Not with uncertainty, like waxed paper around a sandwich,

but securely, like aluminum foil with double-folded seams.

Not temporarily, like a service gig during the ski season,

but solidly, like a tenure-track position with benefits.

Not circumstantial, like an umbrella for a rainy day,

but concretely, like building a rain shelter at a bus stop.

Not indistinguishable, like sugar melted into hot water,

but distinct and unique, like a bin of kumquats and beets.

Not smothering, like a black down jacket in August,

but amplifying, like a step stool that reaches high shelves.

Together simply makes sense,

even when it’s all insensate.


About "Together, Easy": In the lead-up to my partner, Jay's birthday, I was trying to capture the ease of being together, with him. This poem juxtaposes different ways of being together, to try and illustrate exactly what it feels like. The last two lines, ending with sense and insensate tickled me when they landed on the page.



Poem #200, Safe House

by Emily Gibson, July 19, 2022


Too much focus on the dangers

out there.

Watch out for strangers

behind you

The release of vicious angers

from dogs.

Mad bulls, runaway busses,

Crazies with knives

Bands full of drum players

Heat waves, floods, tornadoes

earthquakes and lightning

drought, locusts.

Be on alert!  

It’s all out there waiting to 

pounce on you.


Home is the haven we crave

at day’s end,

Like a well-made, secret cave

only we can locate.

The perpetrators of danger we stave

with our threshold.

Doors, curtains

locks, bolts,

two-way mirrors

frosted glass

Doorbell cams

and peep holes.

Keep out!


If only we understood

we can carry our safe house

wherever we go,

every step we take,

like a caddis fly larvae

with its tunnel of sand and bits of wood.

If we have done the work

to be safe in our own skin,

Our body becomes a bubble of bliss

no matter what storms rage

outside.


About "Safe House": This poem could be called an ode to working on the self. I see so much in our culture relating to safety and danger. I received many messages about safety and danger as a child. It all is a bit counterproductive if not downright harmful. When we are our own safe house, we can be at peace, mindful, and making choices in any situation. It is a goal of my healing. I want to go back to this poem and do a rhyming version, which I attempted in the first halves of the first and second stanzas.



Poem #201, The Best Dessert

by Emily Gibson, July 20, 2022




I forget how big your hands are,

but they match the rest of you:

strong, capable, gentle.

Made to hold my Tigger-abundance.

The balance of life

found with you

is like the best dessert

as a treat every day,

each bit as delicious as the first

and my tongue never goes numb

to your sweetness.

My stomach never turns at the 

thought of another day

spent alongside you,

again.

Nay, each is better, deeper, realer.

Nine years ago

when I first saw you

in a coffee shop,

with your startling mix

of confidence and openness and uncertainty,

my heart settled.

Not settled for, but settled into,

quieted, breathed an “at last, there you are.”

When our mettle and metal is tested

to see if we’ll fray or fatigue, 

we’ve come through

like neighboring sequoias, 

together,

a bit charred,

ready for next.

I celebrate this day of your birth,

when you catch up to my 55,

with confidence, openness, and no uncertainty.


About "The Best Dessert": Jay's birthday poem, inspired in part by the photo, and my frequent marveling at his hands. Because we are the same height, it shocks me how much bigger his hands are, because I don't consider myself to be petite! In this poem, I allude to the journey of this past year, as well as the last nine years, and marvel at the wonder of being together, with him.



Poem #202,  Perfection 

by Emily Gibson, July 21, 2022




We all-knowing humans can’t know it all.

If we did, we’d know 

What a horse feels like

in a roll on perfect gravelly sand

after a cold-water hose-off

at the end of a good ride

on a hot summer day.

We’d know what it feels like

to massage every muscle

with a few short flips

from one side

to the other

and back again.

We’d know perfection.


About "Perfection": I wanted to capture this moment, when my horse Ber devoted himself to rolling. He was in the moment and focused 100% on this one thing. Perfection.





Poem #203, A Moment with Swallows   

by Emily Gibson, July 22, 2022


Wind tunnel,

Birds on their wings

Me on my wheels,

Darkness illuminated by chirps

And a whirr of chain on gears.

Sun on one side

Sun on the other

In between, cool.

Did I startle chill swallows

To dart ahead in panic?

Swallows rode the air

As my bicycle flew the pavement.

At that moment, together, we

Zoomed through a tunnel

Of love of life.  


About "A Moment with Swallows": This poem came from a snapshot of a moment, riding through a tunnel for bicycles and pedestrians. While enjoying the shock of the dark and cool on a blistering hot sunny day, this group of swallows dropped from wherever they perched inside the tunnel and flew out in front of me. It was like they pulled me into their flight formation, it felt like I was flying with them or they were pedaling with me.


And that concludes Sifting the Rubble's poetry for this week! I hope you enjoyed this collection of poems. Perhaps some of them spoke to you, or maybe you found one begging to be shared with someone else.  If so, I hope you will pass it on!  Either way, thank you for listening and reading. Hope to see you next week!

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