Saturday, June 11, 2022

A Poem a Day, Week 23, June 4- June 10, 2022

A Poem a Day, Week 23, June 4 to June 10, 2022

Welcome to Sifting the Rubble's weekly blog and podcast of my poem-a-day challenge for 2022. I am your host, and poet, Emily Gibson. The poems for the 23rd week of the year, June 4 to June 10, were mostly inspired by deep conversations with our house guest from the Netherlands and pithy quotes from various sources.  I never know what will spark a poem, so I jot down phrases. words, images, and conversations that seem interesting or insightful at the time.  When I sit down to write, I review my notes and see what happens.  My goal with this poetry challenge has been to build the habits of a daily writer.  It is worth mentioning that these are 1 or 2 day poems, which have not gone through the grist of revision.  That comes later.  For now, they are freshly hatched, still a little wet around the ears, maybe somewhat awkward.  

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And now, for this week's poems!


Poem #155, Land of Plenty
by Emily Gibson, June 4, 2022

There’s room for everyone to eat
if we build a bigger table.
There’s plenty of apples of sweet,
if we help with the harvest.
There’s energy to summit hills too steep,
if we get out and push together.
There’s space for everyone to sleep,
if we get a little more cozy inside.
Humans seem programmed to compete,
fight over ephemeral trophies,
worship the smoke and mirrors of power:
ownership and money,
status and stuff,
the things that go “poof”
when we all turn to dust.

About "Land of Plenty":  Our house guest, Jelle, said about the housing crisis, "We need to bring enough people into homes until everyone fits." We talked about how what people think matters doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things. And then a quote came across my news feed saying we could solve the hunger problem by building bigger tables so everyone could sit, because there was plenty of food.    I tried to document these ideas in this poem.  

Poem #156, Mind the Moments
by Emily Gibson, June 5, 2022

It isn’t about doing the miles,
it’s about the miles you do.
Life isn’t the sum of our days,
but how much each day counts.
Pedal around the temptation
to focus on the fruits of labor,
for a mind harnessed to moments
makes labor its own reward.

About "Mind the Moments":  This poem has rattled around in my brain since before we left on tour. As I was preparing, with long daily rides, I kept thinking about how the goal isn't to rack up the miles, it is about focusing on the miles  you actually do.  I was reminded of this in talking with Jelle. Seems like it is another version of being present and mindful, one of the greatest lessons I have gained from bicycle touring, for sure.

Poem #157, Thanks, Jelle!
by Emily Gibson, June 6, 2022


Thanks for teaching us
the reason for Holland, Netherlands, and Dutch.
Like USA, America, and the United States,
place names shift over time,
but not everyone gets the memo.

Thanks for expressing wonder,
at the days in the country on a bike,
which expand far beyond time’s measure,
and the wisdom one begins to feel
so intense is the depth that one lives.

You and your bottomless cyclist’s stomach,
with your tour a bright light in your eyes,
and us with our shrunken appetites,
our own tour fading from sight...
ah what a grand time we shared
in this cozy art gallery of a house.

About "Thanks, Jelle": Jelle, a cyclist from Holland, graced us (in our role as warm shower hosts) with his presence over the course of 3 days. As I did with those who hosted us on our trip, I wanted to document his visit with a poem. So soon after the end of our own tour, it was wonderful to revel in his trip and share our experiences. When we asked about why his country has three names, he laughed and said that all 3 people who hosted him had asked the exact same question. One memorable conversation surrounded the topic of how expansive time seemed, on tour. What we are able pack into one day mirrors what we pack on our bike! Jelle said it well with, "You begin to feel so wise!"  

Poem #158, Softened
by Emily Gibson, June 7, 2022



Soft mountain
of burnt trees.
New green shoots
through pavement.
A cityscape of iron
encroached by dunes.
Nature ever turns
destruction to new:
softens hardness,
embraces the lost
reclaims the taken
re-births the once-was.
Something we of
short human lives
struggle to grasp.

About "Softened":  On another trip through the Santiam River canyon, I was again struck by the visuals of the land recovering from the fires of 2020.  How soft the gray-silver of dead trees made the hills, from a distance.    And I thought back to when we rode south of S.F. on our bike tour, on the Great Highway, past the sand dunes that endlessly heap up on the road.  At the time, we talked about how long it might take for the wind to bury the entire city in sand.

Poem #159, Given the Chance
by Emily Gibson, June 8, 2022

We like to say that we don’t get to choose our parents, that they were given by chance.” --Seneca



I like the parents
I was given by chance.
And given the chance
to choose others,
none could edge out
the advantage
of my originals.
They influenced me into
the I that I am.
Selecting others would
annihilate me
it seems.
Or make me 
unrecognizable.
I’m not even
sure I would
like myself,
if I wasn't
this self.

About "Given the Chance":  Another inspiration from The Daily Stoic, I went in a different direction than the quote, which encouraged people to find other mentors to emulate in the grand catalog of history.  Instead, I wanted to embrace my parents of chance.  Wouldn't want to change them, one bit.  They helped make me who I am.

Poem #160, In Praise of Things that Cannot Last
by Emily Gibson, June 9, 2022

I want to praise things that cannot last. --Barbara Crooker, “Equinox”

Things that cannot last
yet cycle through our lives
predictably, bring
a spark of recognition--
old friends seen once again,
and a pang of possible loss--
each time could be the final.
Warm needles and leaves fragrancing fall air;
Rain hitting hot pavement, leaving a dry concrete mist;
Pulse of a raptor in flight, a woosh of wings in unison;
Waves hissing on dry sands, rolling pebbles to round;
Meteorites of the Perseids, flashed across cold night skies.
The things that cannot last,
are reminders of the moment
and in those moments
they are eternal.

About "In Praise of Things that Cannot Last":  I saw this quote in another book I am reading, "Women Rowing North" by Mary Pipher.  I tracked down Barbara Crooker's complete poem, 'Equinox,' which you can find here.  Her poem is a beautiful catalog of nature, which I didn't want to duplicate in my own way.  Instead I wanted to write about how those temporary things make me feel and the residues of lessons they leave behind.


Poem # 161,  Mountain or Molehill?
by Emily Gibson, June 10, 2022

Every mountain, once a molehill
just a glimmer of what would be.
Every river, once a rivulet,
a mirage of the raging waters to come.
Every canyon, once a crack,
dreaming of wind and water’s erosive expansion.
Obstacles in our way
were all once tiny, surmountable,
easily stepped over,
sashayed around.
Tiny steps add up.
Seconds become years
Teaspoons become lakes
Grams become elephants.
Every problem,
Every bad habit
Every derailment
is a trickle at outset.
Eat away at overwhelm,
with manageable bites,
until forward
is easier
than back.
That helps.

About "Mountain or Molehill":  This poem is another inspiration from The Daily Stoic.  When I first read the quote about how bad habits and ill-discipline start as trickles, I thought about my spinal alignment and the lesion in my neck that was worsened by my poor posture.  When we bear the results of allowing a tiny trickle to continue until it is a coursing river, it takes a lot to reverse course. But it is possible, one step at a time.  A lesson from this past year that I hope to remember.

And that concludes Sifting the Rubble's poetry for this week! I hope you enjoyed this collection of poems. Perhaps some of them spoke to you, or maybe you found one begging to be shared with someone else. Either way, thank you for listening and reading. Hope to see you next week!

Saturday, June 4, 2022

A Poem a day, Week 22, May 28 to June 3 2022

 A Poem a Day, Week 22, May 28 to June 3, 2022

Welcome to Sifting the Rubble's weekly blog and podcast of my poem-a-day challenge for 2022.  I am your host, and poet, Emily Gibson.  The poems for the 22nd week of the year, May 28 to June 3, are steeped in my challenge of finding purpose and meaning in work that fits with my sensory limitations from my version of MS, which are likely with me for the near future. There is also a lot going on in the world, which made it into some poems.   There is some darkness, as well as a lot of light this week.

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Poem #148,  Keep it Simple 
by Emily Gibson, May 28, 2022

“Your purpose is to be a good human being.”  --Marcus Aurelius

Slow down,
talk yourself 
off the ledge,
don’t get upset,
do the right thing.
Take it as it comes,
moment by moment.
Don’t get lost

in the weeds.

It’s that simple.


About "Keep it Simple": I am reading this book, The Daily Stoic which shares a daily meditation on the wisdom of the Greek Stoics.  This day's meditation was about focusing on the most important work of people, to be good human beings.  It was perfectly timed, as I found my stress rising when I contemplated work I could do with my sensory and energy limitations.   When I focus on being a good human being, my energy settles and I believe it will all work out.

Poem #149,  My Proper Human Work

by Emily Gibson, May 29, 2022


Give me work that feeds my soul,

Tests my wits, and makes me whole.

A job that needs to be done

But not just by any ole’ someone.

I wish my hire would be required

For all the skills I’ve acquired.

Perhaps using the beauty of words?

Or knowledge of nature and birds?

Helping people, their purpose to find,

Or realize what is true in their mind…

It’s all well and good to me,

With frequent breaks under a tree.  

Please, make it pass my stress test

So I can do the hours without rest.

And if the pay is good and steady,

Tomorrow I will be ready!

Desire for proper human work, you see,

Is the root of my wholehearted plea.


About "My Proper Human Work": This poem came off of the previous, "Keep it Simple" poem, as I thought more about my proper work. This poem is essentially my love letter to the universe, containing my hopes for finding the "next thing" that will feed my soul, my horse, and me.


Poem #150,   Busyness is not a Virtue

by Emily Gibson, May 30, 2022


Busyness is not a virtue,

my mother often admonished.

Despite her best efforts, 

the world I was born into

inculcated me to DO,

and trapped me

in a forest of shoulds.


Stepping off the carousel

of misguided purpose

takes courage, indeed.

There are no lights

illuminating the way,

no reliable maps,

and any self-promoted 

tour guide is misguided, 

misdirected, or both.


You will stumble,

you will trip, 

your shoulders will shudder

with self-doubt,

your feet will wander in loss.

Just keep asking:

What am I doing?

Why am I doing this?

Where will doing this take me?


If you don’t have an answer

that feels true to you,

Stop.

Listen to the birds.

Remember your song,

the reason you were born.

Then, try again.






About "Busyness is not a Virtue":
The third poem about finding my purpose, this one also has roots in a meditation from The Daily Stoic. The three questions, "What am I doing, Why am I doing it, and Where will it take me?" came directly from the May 30th entry in the book.  I appreciate how my mom's words of wisdom mirrored ancient Greek philosophers!  I well remember my mom trying to influence the choices I made with my time and energy when I was in my 20s and 30s.  Only now, in my 50s, do I truly understand.  I start to feel that my MS was the catalyst for finally stepping off the carousel of our society's shoulds.

Poem #151  Illusions of Normal

by Emily Gibson,   May 31, 2022


There’s no return to normal

Because normal is just illusion

Wrested from disparate events

And the numbness of routine.


There is no return to normal

When you are gifted disease--

For the negation of ease

Shatters all pretense of illusion.


There is no return to normal,

Since normal required distance, 

To push and cajole the body 

In ignorance of its needs. 


There is no return to normal,

Or creation of a new normal,

Except mindfulness, presence,

And being in the moment.






About "Illusions of Normal": The fourth in this week's series on purpose and work, this poem explores the notion of "back to normal." Something that people often say at the end of a long trip, or as a goal after a major disruption in life, like an illness.  Through the process of reflection and work that emerged in my quest for wellness, I came to a new awareness of normal, which I tried to capture with these words.  Being in the moment, accepting what has come with the day, that is my most viable path to contentment and health

Poem #152, Light

by Emily Gibson, June 1, 2022


You think you know the color white

until a freshly snow-capped mountain

pops out against storm-plump black skies.

Okay, that’s white!

But then a brand new calf startles you 

with its pristine face framed in black fur.

Oh, well then, that’s white!

Interesting how the color that 

contains all colors of light

intensifies

when contrasted against the color that

is the absence of any light.   

Yet any individual color against black

Requires illumination of sunlight

to stand out.






About "Light": While moving about my day, I saw our local Cascades, newly coated with snow, set against a backdrop of storm-heavy skies. The line, "You think you know white" came to me.  The last bit about individual colors needing light refers to when I saw some green trees against the same storm sky.  Only the ones in sunbeams stood out, the others disappeared into the gray.  I enjoyed exploring what science tells us about visible light, and how that plays out in real life.


Poem #153, Stuck

by Emily Gibson, June 2, 2022


To be stuck in a world

of worry,

for a horse,

is to be never at

rest,

even when 

standing still.






About "Stuck": While riding my horse, Ber, who is the epitome of calm these days at the age of 19, I watched a horse new to the ranch.  It came in for training with Charley. This horse, also 19, was carrying so much worry, it was beside itself, even when tied.  My heart hurt for this horse.  All horses seek peace, but this one didn't seem to even know that peace was possible.   Hopefully time with Charley will help, as it certainly did for Ber.  

Poem #154,  Pride

by Emily Gibson, June 1, 2022


Pride.

The rainbow shows

all colors as stripes 

of visible light,

teased apart when

bent through a prism, rain, 

or the sheer mist of a waterfall.

Each color adds to the world;

the absence of each 

leaves us a hole of darkness.

So too all the stripes

of our primate species.

Some ask, why focus

attention on our differences?

Doesn’t that divide us?

Aren’t we all really the same?

Differences are made invisible

if we don’t know them,

like a color is unseen

without a name. 

We must filter humanity

through the prism of identity.

Thus, everyone will be 

seen.

Only then will all be safe 

OUT of the prism.


About "Pride": This poem began when I wrote "Light" earlier in the week.  What was on my mind and in my heart was the beginning of Pride month. As an educator, I strive every day to be present for kids, in any way they show up, to help them be who they are. So I wrote this poem as an explanation of my explanation for why the rainbow is a perfect symbol for Pride, with all the colors that are in sunlight mirroring the many identities within humanity.


And that concludes Sifting the Rubble's poetry for this week!  I hope you enjoyed this collection of poems.  Perhaps some of them spoke to you, or maybe you found one begging to be shared with someone else.  Either way, thank you for listening and reading. Hope to see you next week! 


Sunday, May 29, 2022

A Poem a Day, Week 21, May 21 to May 27

   A Poem a Day, Week 21, May 21 to May 27 2022

Welcome to Sifting the Rubble's weekly blog and podcast of my poem-a-day challenge for 2022.  I am your host, and poet, Emily Gibson.  The poems for the 21st week of the year, May 21 to May 27, celebrated the end of our bicycle tour and our transition home after six weeks on the road.  These poems bear a lot of weight, and not all from the natural struggles of big changes and milestones.  This week saw another school shooting in Uvalde, Texas, which made everything else pale in comparison.  

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Poem #141,  The Familiar Welcomes Us Home

by Emily Gibson, May 21, 2022


After all the novelty

life on the road brings,

it is the normalcy, 

of knowing where everything is

that tells us we are home.

The colors of the living room,

All the clocks clicking in their way,

the sound of the hot water kettle.

The feel of our own sheets,

the smell upon opening our front door.

Driving my manual car with

the simplicity of its dashboard!

How Ber’s hooves sound on the gravel

and the sleek satin of his summer coat grown in.

All our spices, in the right drawer,

and the condiments in the fridge door.

The scolding Steller jay at our porch

hauling peanuts to plant in our lawn.

With reluctance and relief

I sink into the couch

and make a list for tomorrow.


About "The Familiar Welcomes Us Home": As we drove from Santa Barbara to Vallejo on Saturday, I found myself shifting between thoughts of loss related to the end of something wonderful (our bicycle tour) and thoughts of anticipation for all the things I missed about home. I used this poem to think about the aspects of home, both small and large, that I looked forward to, as a way to assuage the mounting yet normal grief that comes with the end of anything significant in our lives.



Poem #142, The Weight of Next

by Emily Gibson, May 22, 2022


Pedaling 6 weeks is less exhausting

then driving 8 hours to reach home.

The weight of return grows heavier

as the balance of miles pivots behind.


The to-do list threatens erasure 

of our on-the-road routine’s peace:

wake, eat, pack, 

pedal, drink, pedal,

pedal, eat, pedal,

shop, pedal, camp,

eat, sleep, repeat.


Don’t lose the hard-won space,

the reflection and growth

the understanding of personal strength.

Your resilience is real.

A year fighting back MS

To be able to pedal again.

You did it.

And now you figure out what’s next.

No rush, all in good time,

like the cadence of your pedals.


About "The Weight of Next": I expected transitioning back from 6 weeks of camping and living on my bicycle to be challenging. It certainly was after our last tour across the country. But this transition has been more difficult in many ways. So much of the last year has been just fighting back against MS, figuring out how to be healthy and strong so I could ride my bike. I did it. Now what?



Poem #143, Our Mountains 

by Emily Gibson, May 23, 2022










Arranged around this basin

Rise the grand glory of this land:

Our mountains.

From their asture perches

Of dramatic uplift or cold  spewn lava,

They gaze at us, and our hurry

The rush of our busy lives 

makes no sense.

I can feel them shrug and shake,

with their geologic perspective.

They remind me to consider

Why.


About "Our Mountains": Seeing the mountains and cinder cones of Central Oregon, I felt such a dramatic contrast from our time on the Pacific Coast. This land is different, and sometimes I long so deeply for what is familiar, with the green and growth and moisture of the coast, that I forget how this land speaks to me, too, just in a different voice. I loved that I missed this new homeland of mine.



Poem 144,  No 

by Emily Gibson, May 24, 2022


No.  

No-no-no-no.

Just NO.

Not again, not one more bullet

searing one more child’s lungs.

Our society’s festering wounds

on full display 

with each murderous rampage

fostered by easy access.

Like sap seeping from a tree

oozing over all in its path,

immobilizing and interring life,

gun violence colors our world

amber red.

Once happy memories

of school, shopping, subway

dissolve into

fear, anxiety, worry.

When is the next time?

Who is out there, hurting?

Where will the bodies get buried?

How do we hide?  

You can’t.  It’s everywhere.

Please no more.

Make it stop.


(photo credit Angus Veitch, from Flickr)


About "No": This poem was my attempt to put my anguish about the slaughter of children and educators in Uvaldi on paper. As a teacher who has gone through my share of active shooter drills, this is all I can say about it right now.



Poem 145,  Where Are the Birds? 

by Emily Gibson, May 25, 2022


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Our morning wakeup call 

for six weeks

in our tent

on the road,

heralded the day.

Each location, we awoke

to a new celebration.

I remember

New Brighton State Park.

Waves of birdsong

merged into our slumber,

each a new family

building like a freight train

until the baton passed to the next.

Nearly two hours

they drenched our ears

until the sun soaked us

with the new day.

This air is too quiet

here at home.

We live inside again.

I open the window

and hear one bird’s call

faint and faraway.  

It’s somewhat sad,

and not the same,

but it’s what we have.


About "Where are the Birds?": I woke up on this morning and missed our morning wakeup call, all closed in in our house as we are. I opened the window, hoping to hear a chorus, but it seemed silent. I lay down and listened, and soon I heard a lone bird, a robin I think, greeting the day. Not the crescendo of sound we experienced our last week in California, but enough.


Poem #146, The Color of Life is Green

by Emily Gibson, May 26, 2022


Every nook, ledge, hill and expense

Carpeted in a swath of vegetation.

Green that pierces your tiniest bones

The ones in your ears and toes.

A wavelength so lush, I can smell it

Through the closed car windows.

Burnt tree carcasses in blacks and grays

Provide background, intensify the color.

Remind this jaded mind of life’s insistence

And the impermanence of destruction.


About "The Color of Life is Green": Earlier, I wrote a poem about the destruction along the Santiam River Canyon, from a drive. This time, I was shocked by the green everywhere. I'm not sure if the blackened trees made it brighter, or if it is always that bright there. Earth and life will find a way. Looking back on the poem, I think it relates a bit to the terrible event in Texas, too. The impermanence of destruction.


Poem #147,  Quiet Competence 

by Emily Gibson, May 27, 2022


Quiet competence--

The ability to do what

Needs to be done

Without fanfare

Or boast,

With humility

And gratitude--

Makes the world a better place

for a moment.

Anywhere it appears

Give thanks, 

For it is humanity’s promise

This quiet competence.

About "Quiet Competence": I wrote this poem for Charley Snell and Russ White, who work with my horse, Ber. They both are expert practitioners in their fields, but they do so without a lot of fanfare. Just matter-of-fact competence.


That concludes Sifting the Rubble's poetry for this week!  I hope you enjoyed this collection of poems.  Perhaps some of them spoke to you, or maybe you found one begging to be shared with someone else.  Either way, thank you for listening and reading. Hope to see you next week! 

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